Back to life...

So I guess its finally time to get back to regular life.. haha! I have had a week or so away from home, away from work, away from my everyday duties. So I guess that I should get back to what I should be doing!!

I have added another day into my work schedule. I am know working THURSDAY night swing shift!! Its hard for me to just sit at home all week. I have always been use to working 2 to 3 jobs since I was out of high school. So going to only working 1 job twice a week was hard. Don't get me wrong at all, I love being able to spend time with my daughter all the time and not having to leave her at some random persons house, but sometimes you just need mommy time... and if that includes working, that is gonna have to work. Plus its an extra hundred dollars in my pocket!! We will see how it works!


I am so SICK OF SNOW!! I really wish right now that it would stop and the sun come out and melt it all and let it be SPRING!! I really miss being able to work out in the yard, planting flowers or in my garden. That was the highlight of my SPRING and SUMMER last year. I'm excited to see Ashlynn play outside and help me with my flowers this year. She loves flowers, dirt, and being outside!! So I decided the other day that while we had snow, we better get out and enjoy it instead of being negative about it... So Friday afternoon we went SLEDDING!! Ashlynn, Kody and I went up to the elementary school with Melinda and her 2 girls and went sledding. Ashlynn loved it. Everytime we went down the hill, she started yelling 'wahooooo'. We got to the bottom and she'd turn around and say 'gin'. SHE LOVED IT! We stayed for about an hour and went back out yesterday. We decided to put the 2 young girls in the sled and push them down by themselves. Taryne and Ashlynn had sooo much fun riding together, which was nice for Melinda and I because we got to go down on the single sleds by ourselves! It was a blast! Have to do that again soon!!


Last but not least... Gotta get back on the biggest loser diet challenge. I have been slacking and with everything going on the last couple of weeks I have gained all my weight back. Starting tomorrow, which starts a new week, I am going to be good. I am starting back on HERBALIFE and going to stick with it. When I was on it last year, I lost a lot of weight and inches. I cant even fit in them.... its SAD!! So I am making it my goal this week to loose at least 5 pounds. I know I can do it, when I tried it 6 months ago I did it in one day. So we will see what happens!! Wish me luck! I am sure I will post before that, but if not I will post next Monday or Tuesday to let you know what happened!

Gpa Funeral Pics....

Lots of Pictures, please bare with me....

Top Pics - Ashlynn, My dad saying his Family Prayer
Bottom Pics - The Grandboys carrying the casket

Flag Ceremony, Gun Firing... it all was pretty cool, Grandpa would have loved it


Gunnison American Legion Post #104

Giving the Flag to Aunt Donna. She is going to fly it in her yard.

Top Pics - Dad and Grandpa's friend Grover (He is the last of the friends still alive), Ashlynn and Mom
Bottom Pics - Landon with Lois (Grandpa's Sister) and her daughter, Clint and Keishia

Grandpa's Beautiful Casket with trees on it and the headstone

Flowers

Wreath My dad had made from Barb Wire from Grandpa's Farm and his old hat and gloves

Farewell to a great man...

Well, yesterday was the day, we said goodbye to a great man. It was hard to sit in that viewing room, knowing that it was going to be the last time that I was going to ever see his face. It was so hard to sit there as they closed that casket forever. I just had to keep telling myself that Grandpa was happy and in heaven with the love of his life. They still have work to do and they are going to do it together! My dad said the family prayer, he did a wonderful job. I am so proud of him through all of this. He has tried to be so strong, when I know he is hurting so bad inside. I wish I lived closer to him to try to help him through this. I hope he knows how much I love him and wish I could be there for him. I know that he will get through this. Things are hard right now, and I wish I could just comfort his hear

The funeral service was really good. There were a lot of speakers and musical numbers. My brother Clint talked about our memories of Grandpa. He did really well. I was so proud that he had the courage to get up in front of everyone and talk about Grandpa, and did it without crying. We had one of our friends daughter sing "Daddy's Hands". She did such an amazing job. I just layed my head in my lap and bawled. It was hard to listen to that song, and not think about Grandpa.

The Grandkids sang "Grandpa" by the Judds. We were told that we sounded good. Landon was the loudest guy, and Ty said that he made the song! It was really neat to be able to get up there and sing for Grandpa. Grandpa's friend Grover got up to talk and said at the beginning of his talk, "If LeeRoy was here, he would be so happy to see this little girl in the isle. She is so cute and puts smile on my face." Yes, he was talking about Ashlynn. She was sitting in the isle of the chapel, she was getting tired, and when I went up to sing, she started to cry. It was pretty cute if you think about it. I said the closing prayer and wasnt too sure what to say when I got up there. I feel I did pretty good, it just came to me when I got up there. I could hear everyone cry when I was talking.. it was hard!

The graveside service was really good. They had the military rights by Gunnison American Legion Post #104. They did great. It was really cool to see that and how they folded the flag. I have pictures of all of that and I will post them tomorrow, if my internet is up. After all the services, we headed back to the church for lunch. I want to thank the relief society for the delicious food. It was so nice for everyone to sit and talk with each other.

All in all, it was a good day. Things turned out beautiful and Grandpa would have been proud. I miss you Grandpa and cant wait to see you again. I know that you are happy with your sweetheart and know that she is just as happy to see you. I love you!

Grandpa and the 4 kids at my Grandmas funeral
Donald, David (My Dad)
Donna, Grandpa, and Judy

A day away....

Well today my little brother Landon had a basketball game in Moab. I wasn't going to go with, but decided we all needed a day away from Gunnison. Grandpa's funeral was in just a few days and I thought that it would be good to get out of dodge and take some deep breaths.

Well the views to Moab from Gunnison were beautiful. It didn't ever snow on us, but there was snow on the ground. I forgot to take my camera, but this was taken from my phone... pretty good if I say so myself!! It took us about two in a half hours to get there. Once in Moab, there were cool shops and lots of tourist attraction type things. I have never been there before. I am going to have to plan a trip there during the summer to go see what its like.

Landon played his game, which started at 2:30 pm. His team did really good the first half. They were up by almost 10 points the whole time. The in the last 2 quarters, the other team kinda kicked some rear. Landon's team ended up loosing after being beat, hit in the face, and pretty much trampled on. They sure did put up a good fight! Good Job Bubba!! I was proud of you!!

Here are a few pics I took with my phone again....

Landon playing ball

The team trying to score

Well tomorrow is the start of the funeral stuff. Viewing is from 6 to 8 pm. Wish me luck!!

Going to see Grandpa....

Well you guessed it ... we are on our way to Richfield to see Grandpa. The parents went yesterday and got him all ready for the funeral. We are gonna go fix the program so dad said we could go and see grandpa. I am pretty excited. I didn't get to see him after he died and I really want to. I miss him. I miss seeing his face. Dad said he looks so peaceful. I guess dad made everyone cry yesterday by saying he looked peaceful sleeping that he asked grandpa to wake up and come home with the kids. I really wish he would! Well til the next post....

Another day... more tears....

Well you guessed it. Its been another day and more tears have been shed. Its amazing to see what the last two days have brought. We had to go find some church clothes for everyone yesterday for the funeral on Monday. None of the boys had some nice church clothes to wear. After we got back to town, we headed back over to Grandpa's for dinner. I just want to say thanks to all of the people that have brought food and stopped by or called and gave condolenses. It means a lot to me and my whole family.

We were there for a few minutes and I just had to leave. Its so hard to walk in the back door and look directly into the living room and see Grandpa's green rocking chair and not see his relaxing with his dog, whoopi, in his lap. Everytime I see that chair I break down and cry so hard. I miss him so much. I miss being able to give him a hug, or him saying everything will be ok. I know that he is so much happier in Heaven with my Grandma, but I just cant see us camping, farming, or riding four wheelers without him. He lived for that kind of stuff. I remember the last time we went camping, he was like a 10 year old on a four wheeler. He wanted to go the fastest and the longest. If there was a river or muddy hole or something like that, you would see him in it! I remember as a younger child, when we would go get cattle off the mountain. My dad, Grandpa Childs, and I would ride horses and try to find the cows. It was always amazing to me at how at peace and relaxed Grandpa was on his horse. Oh, its so hard to see us doing that now without him and his encourgement when you were scared that the horse was going to buck you off.

We were deciding on what Clinton should do for the funeral yesterday and my dad was talking about grandpa. The thing that he said that started all of the crying yesterday was, and in his words I will type this...

It doesnt matter what has happened, you should always be thinking of Grandpa. Whenever you feel the wind blow or whenever you see the leaves or pine needles move, or feel a breeze run across your face, know that it is him. He may not be alive, or be here to hug you, but he is still there. He didnt go anywhere, he is still here.

Well, I thought about that all day yesterday and it is very true. He really is still here, until you push it away. In everything you do, he is still watching you from heaven.

We have some drama that is going to start unfolding, I will write about that tomorrow. Today I want to just think about the best Grandpa that anyone could ask for. As Clint said yesterday, he was the toughest most stubborn person we knew, he always wanted to be right there doing everything. He was 76 years old and was still going to the farm everyday to help the boys feed the cows. He lived for that farm. I am going to go down there today or tomorrow and take some pictures, Ill post them later. Here are a few that I found today while I was looking for some to give mom and dad to copy to give to the mortuary.

I LOVE YOU GRANDPA!!

Grandpa I miss you...

This morning as we were eating breakfast, we listened to the radio and heard Grandpa's obituary. I wanted to cry. Its so strange to be up here and not have Grandpa here to visit with. I miss hearing his voice and his sweet kind words to everyone. Its so weird to walk into his house, his room, and think that it was the last place he was.

My aunt found him on the floor of his bedroom yesterday morning. She couldn't wake him up and didn't know what was going on. She decided to call my dad, who went over and knew right when he looked at him that he was gone. My dad said that when he saw him, it looked like he had a smile on his face. I have been thinking all night at how excited he was to finally be with his sweetheart again. I wondered what they were doing in heaven, are they dancing, singing, watching over future great grand children. Was he relaxing or was he farming like he always has.

It is so nice to have all the family together, I wish it wasn't because of the situation, but sometimes that's the way it happens. The funeral will be on Monday. I am going to say the closing prayer. I thought about talking, but wouldn't quite know what to say. We will see if I decide to do something different.

This is a picture my dad took last week when Ashlynn was here. She and my Grandpa were playing Legos. Im so glad that things happened the way that they did so she was able to have that time to spend with Grandpa. He really enjoyed spedning time with Grandkids and Great Grandkids. Im just glad we have this picture with him and Ashlynn before he died. He will be missed. :(

Here is the obituary that I found on the mortuaries website this morning...

LEEROY CHILDS, 75, GUNNISON, passed away January 19, 2010 — husband of the late Kathleen Harmon Childs — father of Donna Sorensen, Axtel; Judy Martinez, David Childs and Donald Childs, all of Gunnison — brother of Lois Mickelson, Provo — FUNERAL SERVICES WILL BE HELD on Monday, January 25, 2010 at 12:00 Noon in the Gunnison Stake Center, 80 West Center — FRIENDS MAY CALL at the stake center Sunday evening from 6-8 and again Monday from 10:30 - 11:30 a.m. — BURIAL WILL BE in the Gunnison Cemetery with military rites by the Gunnison American Legion, Post #104 — FUNERAL DIRECTORS: Magleby Mortuary, Richfield, Salina and Manti

More posts tomorrow on the updates. Thanks to everyone for the condolenses and loving words and prayers. We all appreciate it.

Sad Day....

Today while driving to work, my step-mom called and told me that my Grandpa had died during the night. I am falling apart, I cant type anymore. This is a sad day. Ill try to post tomorrow with more info.

I love you Grandpa! You were an amazing man, and will be missed by everyone that was in your life. Thanks for playing lego's with Ashlynn last week. I'm sorry I didn't stop to say Hi, I regret that ever since. :(

Peace, Love, Happiness....

I found this picture today while I am sitting at work. This week has been a week from hell and I am so ready for this new week to start. I saw this picture and wished so bad that I could be exactly like this, just be peaceful, happy, and in love. I have been a whirlwind of emotions this week and I am glad that its Sunday. Its a start to a new week. A new outlook on life, my relationship with Ty, being a good mom to Ashlynn, and friendships.

I feel like I have neglected these things in the past few months and have changed into a person who just doesn't care or didn't care. I have tried to be what everyone else wanted me to be, and forgot about the two most important people in my life. I let little things get to me when I shouldn't have and argued and was short with Ty when I should have been the bigger person, who talks and makes things work like an adult. But that goes both ways. Everyone should step back and look at how they are treating the ones that they love, one day they may just up and leave and then you will wish that you would have.

Starting tomorrow I am starting again on Herbalife. We have been in this weight loss challenge for 3 weeks now and I haven't lost very much. I need to kick it into gear. Ty is down quite a few pounds and I am so proud of him. He has kept going, when I know that he just doesn't want to. He put on a pair of pants the other day and they were so loose they fell off of him. He was so excited that he could put them away in his 'fat drawer'.

Here is to a week of peace, love, and happiness......

New Year... New stuff...

Well ready or not, here we are.... Happy 2010! It is the 7th day of the year, and I have lots to blog about!! Life is so exciting and gets better everyday that it continues!! I cannot believe that it is a new decade. Its amazing to see how fast time flies!

First of all, for New Years we decided to go up to my dads house for the party! We all had a blast! My parents got prime rib and cooked it for dinner. It was so good!! Grandpa came over for dinner and we watched the Jazz lose. After that the party was on!! lol! We all played each other in Wii. The boys boxed, played golf, and bowling! Ashlynn even tried to get in on the action when she took on of the remotes and was pretending that it was a Wii controller.

On Saturday, the 2nd, Ty and I headed to Salt Lake City for the Jazz game. We decided to get up and go early and go shopping and do whatever we wanted for a few hours. It was fun! We went to the Gateway for some shopping and lunch. WOW is all I have to say! That is an awesome mall.... if you can even call it that! We at at Tuscanos Brazilian Grill... OH MY GOSH!! It was SO good!! They had delicious food and awesome Limeades! It was about 13 bucks a person for lunch, but was way worth it! I will definitely go again... but next time I will go hungry! After that we drove out to West Valley so Ty could show me his neighborhood that he lived in growing up. It was pretty neat to see the house that he lived in and the area. After that we met up with Adam and Kori and headed to the game! The Jazz sucked that night, lost by 10 points, but we had a blast yelling and screaming at them! We got to eat pizza, cotton candy, and ice cream! It was great! Although I knew that it was going to screw my biggest loser diet. OH WELL!! It was fun!

We came home on Sunday. We took the LONG way home. Went from Gunnison to Salina, to Scipio, to Delta, to Milford, to Minersville, to Cedar, then home.. ya it was a long way! But it was pretty neat to see all of those small towns I haven't ever been too. Soon to find out, when I went to work on Tuesday, Josie Fox, a Millard County Deputy was shot just outside of Delta... right where we had driven the day or so before. Its so sad! My heart broke when I heard that she was dead. Stupid Drug Dealing Mexican (sorry if I offend anyone, not really caring right now!). I just saw on the news today that they are seeking the death penelty.. serves him right! I hope that is what he gets! I wish her family the best of luck, they are in my prayers!

Anyways, The biggest loser diet... I was up 2 pounds since my first weigh in, which means I would have to kick my butt into gear! Well I have lost 3.5 pounds since that weigh in on Monday. I love it! I am totally going to kick some rear! If I lose 5 pounds a week that would be good for me... buy the end of the 90 days, that will be 40 pounds.. my goal was 50! I am totally loving the workouts. Some of the things are hard, but I do the best that I can and think its working!

Today was a good day for Ashlynn!! I got up to go to the bathroom this morning, she followed me in there and decided that she wanted to do the same thing. She has a cute lil froggy potty that I bought for her a couple months ago when I thought that she wanted to start potty training. Well, she took all of her clothes off, and sat down. Keep in mind, she always sits on it, but with clothes on. So she sat down, pointed and the toliet paper. I told her that I would give her some after she went pee. Well, low and behold, she did! She started to pee in the potty. It was awesome! I started to cheer for her and think that I scared her, cuz she stoped and stood up and started crying. I felt really bad and told her to sit down, but she just sat there and cried and cried! :) She stood up and started to pee on the towel I had on the floor, and cried even more! It was great. I did cheer her on and give her lots of hugs and tell her it was ok to pee in the frog potty! I hope she will do it again on her own. I have decided that is what I am just going to do. She will know when she is ready for it! This is Ashlynn a couple months ago.. she wanted to sit on it and eat her food.. guess that is what she does on her potty.. what do u do.. lol!!

Well, that is my update from New Years til now... Hope everyone had a good new years and cant wait to see whats in store for me this year!!