Still Missing You...

I have been having a hard time the last few days. I don't know why all of a sudden I really have been missing my Grandpa Childs A LOT! I don't know why but for the first time in a couple of months I cried because I miss him so much. Its so hard to know that I wont get to see him anymore when I go to visit at my dad's house. For so long, that was the thing that I did. When I would go to Gunnison, I would go see Grandpa. It was always so nice to be able to sit and talk to Grandpa. He always had stories to tell, or wanted to know what was going on in our lives. 

I stopped at my dad's house on the way home from Salt Lake the other day. I kept thinking, and I don't know why, that I wanted to go see Grandpa. After the thought would go through my mind, I would catch myself and say, he's not at his house anymore Annalee. While I was there, we went to my brothers house, my dad bought my Grandpa's car. It is so crazy how it smells just like it did all those years ago when Grandpa and Grandma would drive us back to Beaver to meet my mom to go home after visiting. I loved spending that time with them. I have missed the smell of their house and the warm inviting loves that they each gave you as you came through the door. You never went with out loves from Grandma and Grandpa.

I was looking at my cousins blog today and found a couple of pictures from a cattle drive that my Grandpa went on a little while ago. It was so neat to see Grandpa on his horse. He loved riding his horse. I remember riding horses with Dad and Grandpa when I was younger. I remember it was just us 3 and we went looking for cows one day. That day I went in between two trees and hit my knee. It was so much fun, even if I did get hurt in the process. I miss those days so much, what I would give to go back in time just for that moment to be with those 2 again alone on top of the mountain.

I know that even though Grandpa is in Heaven, (and I know that he made it there!), he is still here everyday with me. Someday it will be easier I am sure, but for right now, its still hard.